SilentSurrender

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unfinished thoughts by SilentSurrender, literature

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unfinished thoughts

If I do it would take.. But I can't really make.. Now it all seems so fake Why am I still awake? It would do me some good.. But I don't think I should.. Take it back! Knock on wood! I'm so misunderstood Come to think of it now.. Though I wouldn't know how.. If I were to allow.. Oh, things work out somehow Then again, what if they.. But I can't really say.. No, it won't work that way Make this all go away! Well, I've fought and I've sought All the coulds and the oughts Yet I'm still so distraught By these unfinished... thoughts?

i'm lost. by SilentSurrender, literature

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i'm lost.

if only it were that time could be reversed words that streamed so smoothly now could not seem any worse a hope for salvage gone so wrong and now it's time to learn a new song it seems vaguely familiar like one i've played before but the tune i've forgotten and i've misplaced the score one moment gone awry and though i smile, my insides cry i tried to climb too high at once and lost my bearing on the ground my senses used to guide the way but now my footsteps have no sound one moment gone askew and now i don't know what to do

never today. by SilentSurrender, literature

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never today.

yet again i am back in my cage a recluse with a smidgen of rage thoughts of who, thoughts of why as my breath starts to cry and i die at this young of an age slowly vanishing just like the sun when it hears that the winter's begun thoughts of when, thoughts of then as my brain spins again and what's been - it has already won so i whisk this away and i hope and i pray that forever is never today.

..... by SilentSurrender, literature

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.....

i have somewhere to be and promises to keep yet here i lie waiting for the page to turn i'm caught in the shadow of not one, but so many i have no reason to back down or jump ahead and here i lie waiting for the song to change i'm caught in a web of hopelashes and sighs i have nowhere to be and no more promises to keep while here i lie remembering all that could have should have ... i'm caught in a maze-like dream of not i, but only what's left only this.

i don't know. by SilentSurrender, literature

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i don't know.

trapped inside a mixture of what i am and who i want to be physical decay and emotional torture dreamless churning will have me sing leave me to swim in sprawling puddles of damage where have i gone? visible delay kissing scorching torches burning my yearning for resounding rings where can i turn? my guiding sunbeam lit the wrong path to the wrong exit should i wait for the end or go back to the beginning?

hmm.. by SilentSurrender, literature

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hmm..

ever feel like everything is connected? ever feel like you're a part of something grand? what is it you don't tell me you want me to know? what is it you tell me you don't want me to know? what is it that needs interpolation? extrapolation? and what of these? every sound rings in my ears as familiar every abstract notion set free from my lips every mirroring image of my depth slowly drips into eternity every echo of my dreams blends with my reality and my stories with one another and my truth with my sleep and i'm tired exhausting my mind with racing thoughts and what is my conclusion? why is it so hard to grasp... this crazy

wipe away the dust by SilentSurrender, literature

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wipe away the dust

what is this glue that holds us together, keeps us from crumbling? what are we? where are we? and why? logical conclusions won't do anymore this has gone beyond rationality silly games of circling and spiraling dreams of a truly fulfilled life seeking some comfort for the soul if only just for a little while this breath is too deep to hold inside just need a place to let it out i can't control this yearning a thirst. a hunger. a craving. for what? a few drops of the future and past mixed with a smidgen of truth times are changing ignorant as am i where is my bliss? i feel its presence but can't seem to find it i'll kee

call it what you will by SilentSurrender, literature

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call it what you will

i've discovered the black-holed gap in this stupendous food chain of discrete random events i've been trying so hard to wrap my mind around it, yet in vain.. this isn't what i meant i've triggered this inevitable trap making the same mistakes again.. this wasn't my intent this high-held wire is just about to snap meanwhile the ice is left out in the rain.. there's no time to repent we run round and round to the beat of one clap so much to lose but so much more to gain.. it's not for us to reinvent this fragile burning wind is withering in my lap it's bound to leave a permanent stain.. seems impossible to prevent this could v

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the midnight hillside by colinMedia, literature

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the midnight hillside

a darker plot and tangled hard we'll scatter down the midnight hillside we'll capture deeper secrets lush in fragrant woods beyond the yard a deeper place and seldom seen the numbers tend to lead amiss suffocation for the small of us to erode the weight of feeling clean the hope of you and tattered flags off this vessel's wood decay sailed across a mess of stars to bear a desperate course of crags in failing flight and overgrown a naive child, a manned machine in time a heart for putting down one day to return the parts on loan a simple plot and tangled tight we'll scatter down the midnight hillside we'll find each othe

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Canada
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: Ontario, Canada
Favourite genre of music: i don't even know anymore - been exposed to mind boggling music as of late... my taste is explo
Operating System: Windows XP
Favourite cartoon character: winnie the pooh
Personal Quote: i don't suffer from insanity - i enjoy every minute of it!

Favourite Visual Artist

Escher, Dali, Thom Yorke, Bach, Chopin

Favourite Movies

Waking Life/Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind/Donnie Darko/Garden State

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Incubus/Radiohead/"Cabbie"/Infected Mushroom/Imogen Heap

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tetris

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music, drawing, writing, reading, photography

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SilentSurrender

Nov 22, 2009

broken

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i held out for longer this time around, but my forced motivation now gets me nowhere, and even that bit's running out. no matter what i do, i end up in the same exact spot. i keep searching for that something that will make things better, but i seem to be looking in all the wrong places, because i haven't found it yet. and i doubt i ever will. i doubt such a thing even exists. i have years of experience. i break so easily... story of my life. here i lie once again - broken. pretending to smile through the cracks will only bring on more tears later... so why bother? those who once inspired me now disgust me, yet i cling onto them with suc

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SilentSurrender

Aug 5, 2008

erase everything

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start over yet again

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SilentSurrender

Jan 28, 2007

Devious Journal Entry

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a mixture of what i am and who i want to be...

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nice pics

thank you very much for the fav on industrial nights!

Thankyou for the

(thanks for the fav on our favourite person!)

Whyte-Spectre

Nov 26, 2006

Hey thanks for the coment on my latest photo... if only I hadn't screwd up and uploaded it twice... And the eraced one, heeh... *Ever so Happy Tree Friends like.*

skqr

Nov 15, 2006

when did u get deviant art

SilentSurrender

Nov 20, 2006

what are you saying man? i've had you on my watch list forever now...i believe i've even commented on your stuff...

you....suck...lol

yeah, i've had dA for a while -